INT--DENNY PACE'S ART STUDIO -DAY
A member,a GOON of "the club with no name,but several just the same " sits on top of DennyPace's back while the other GOON paints DENNY PACE'S like a face painter might ...during Halloween..DENNY'S face is made to resemble a skeleton..the tape is still around his mouth
NOOOObody wants to hear what DENNY PACE has to say...the GOON on DENNY's back says
reading one of Denny's notebooks ,ripping out each page he finished reading ...mocking the tone of voice Denny 's word's evoke in his "handlers"
"what do the voices sound like and what do they say?
I am often asked
and I cannot explain it.
not without setting the clock back
to my early childhood
a childhood only had
to predicate
"the manner"
it was
understood I would react to.
so
it is not really about the sound and words I am forced to hear morning to night ..but more precisely the tone
and temperature of the
"imbue"
to force part of myself
to
BE BACK THERE.IN THAT AWFUL HOUSE WITH THAT AWFUL WOMAN WHO DID THINGS TO ME I KNOW NOW ONLY
ONLY
because it was her job...
to engineer in me..
a clean
CLEAR break from reality...
GOON
(speaking in a more friendly tone)
Yes..this is true and...how dare you not LOVE her doing
these things to make you MORE than you would have .could have ever been if she had not
The GOON painting Denny's face takes his pants off.and places the belt around Denny's neck.Ignoring his partner the GOON continues reading from Denny's notebook
resistance was never part of the plan
as according to operant conditioning
techniques
one raised on shame and ritualized trauma
never entirely becomes
whole
and thus
one never really becomes
a
person.
one raised only to be a specimen ..
must remain
pliable to a system of schism ..that was expected
trust me
no human husk
who fights the tether scores any points but the opposite
a hate which is so profound and different than the almost mechanical malice
those actors..
scribbled into my soul
The GOON sitting on Denny's back cuts through denny's shirt with scissors
and gestures for the other goon to toss him a pastel coloring stick so he can begin scribbling all over Denny's back,laughing he the GOON opens a switchblade and puts the blade in front of DENNY's eyes.than gently uses the open knife to trace the scribble on denny's back ,careful not to break skin.but-
GOON
whooooops..
we CUT to DENNY's eyes which are empty..no fear,no nothing
GOON
(reading again,sitting down harder on Denny's back,pulling
at the belt tied around denny's throat)
some of the ideas that have been placed into my head
dealt with
the subject of suicide way before I ever had the
self respect to
' commit" to the follow through
as no person should be expected to have to
remain forever a five year old
that shat his pants.
because his foster mother
purposely mashed laxatives into his morning chocolate milk
GOON
ONLY a sick sicko man writes of things like this Denny Pace
(the Goon pulls the belt tighter and tighter,hearing Denny choke)
no grown man should be spoken to in a voice so similar to "the baby sitter's boyfriend" his
"team"
brought upon him to molest him
when this child was 3,6 and 7
in order to
make sure the child "had what it took' to split into facets."
the GOON gets off DENNY..
GOON
writing some type of
diatribe about Hazing a child ? Dolores Haze-ing and otherwise ..
have you no respect for what work went into timing these incidents
to make Markings upon you ...(kicking DENNY in the ribs) you
ingrate?
the GOON bends down next to DENNY's ear...
GOON
If.
there was no
impetuous
to force
another
to fly away from themselves
and up into the Heavens....
you wouldn't be magical would you...only a mother
who really really loved their son would go to any length
to make their child cross the boundaries of this reality
and another one all together !
The other GOON comes around pulls DENNY's head up by the belt
GOON 2
(says flipping Denny around and tie-in ghis hands together with
rope and next yanking down Denny's pants
to .make .Denny Pace..a reeeeeeeal wild chiiiiild ...a magical child
he don't look too magical to me ...does he to you?
The first GOON kicks him again hard in the ribs
saying
GOON
that's because the (kick) spirit(kick) has not (kick) yet
Impelled (kick) him..(bending down getting on top of him
from behind the GOON lighting his lighter in front of DENNY's EYES
maybe (the GOON says to the other GOON) maybe Denny needs
to be illuminated (the GOON says flicking the lighter in Denny's eyes as if to burn them out)more ...or eliminated surely.
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