your narrator is temporarily detained.
you dear reader may have seen it coming.
your narrator ,he never lies....except when lies might help you dear reader believe what I am saying.
the things I write about are beyond belief.
what I would give to feel as you do.
believe it or not I cannot afford to really slow down and consider what has happened to me ...I do not often convey how absolutely terrifying it is to be altered in such a way
that my every thought is decoded so my thoughts can be swayed this and that
via interface..
making another a Human Experiment
and the hundreds of thousands who have also been modified for A.I. Testing and Psychotronic weapons testing
that depends upon "a knowing interface'so one's tether ,one's team can send one altered all means of sensory discomfort and fear inducing thoughts not thy own
to not only SEE and HEAR but also DREAM that come from a source
not your own
but nonetheless based on one's own memories
and "style of thought'
they know everything about you
and you know so little about them.
"that's how it works'
the longer this goes on the less I care if it is my own government or another government doing this to me.Nor do I care if this is being done to me and other Targeted Individuals to practice using A.I. ,Psychotronic Terrorism on or against other countries
Any country that does this to it's own citizens
IS the enemy.
But at the same time there is a part of me that doesn't much care WHAT they do to me.
There is less and less of me left.
too little to care.
but always too much of me there to be petrified.
eventually I have enough strength and integrity to leap off a high building
and
this dear reader is in fact all that keeps me sane.
this and street drugs.
but I did too much of them for too long....
and here I am.-in detox.
the drugs I did ....never caused the hallucinations...
the drugs (crack ,heroin) were the only way I could create a firewall....a buffer..
against
"My Team"
I write from long hand blue pen scrawled on the back
of some print out I received "in group'
although I am "in detox" I am still persuaded to 'go to groups"
and learn the reasons I use.
explaining that you use to "make a firewall' between your own mind and some
maniacs who "took you" and dosed you with nanotech ,created to "TEST Neural and perceptual Threshold" doesn't cut it -in rehab
but than again I am writing on the back of a print out that's jist is
YOUR PAIN IS NOT YOUR OWN
yes...a print out I suppose to scare some one with a "drug problem' that although they are in physical pain...
Proper Pain medicine ....is not worth the "price"
really?
here's a bit...verbatim-when your mind is on one region of your own body,the idea is to keep it focused on that region, feeling any and all sensations in that region and breathing this sensation "to" and "from" that region
THIS ...this nonsense above DOES
CUT IT in rehab...
being in my own 24/7 "institution" of Brain Entrainment
I realize quite early in my incarceration
THIS (my being in detox,I can deal with -proper punishment It Is---and warning that "as bad as it gets with "Mandlers" doping myself to discontinuity
is not worth the return...
suicide is about as painless as breathing genuine physical pain "to' and 'from" the painful region in the "body" of one who has now been insinuated with the "hard fact" one under no circumstances can numb their pain...
for ANY reason because somehow
FIRST and FOREMOST one is AN ADDICT...
suicide is not painless.
but
POSSIBLE
and perhaps 'the only way out " of being a targeted individual
....
I SEE THE DETOX SHRINK
and explain -the circumstances of my "really not caring ,if fact WANTING to go as they say one toke OVER the line...
I explain that 'I don't HEAR voices and SEE things for the reasons I know he presumes
I see the smile crip across his face
and watch him go on "I know YOU think this" therapeutic mode
and wonder what it might feel like
to "go homicidal "instead of suicidal
on sorts like this shrink here...(shouldn't one do everything once one has decided "it's time go" bucket list style-?
I have never killed anyone...
but can think of very few people who deserve "to go" more than psychiatrists
the thought -it comes and goes-
but to confront shrink after shrink who doesn't bother keeping "up" on "neurotech'
is disquieting ---
scary....
and for a brief "yawn of a neuron"
a flicker of me doing a bit of FX/Showtime handiwork on this moron
"minds' eye"s itself in my visual cortex
I can't say that I feel this bit of Punch and Splice Violence transmit itself to "my team'
that monitors my brain signals
but I can say I sense "this change of scenery" and cameo by this nitwit shrink is a rather
nice (although a bit tawdry)
"change of pace"-Frank Mills
the things I write about are beyond belief.
what I would give to feel as you do.
believe it or not I cannot afford to really slow down and consider what has happened to me ...I do not often convey how absolutely terrifying it is to be altered in such a way
that my every thought is decoded so my thoughts can be swayed this and that
via interface..
making another a Human Experiment
and the hundreds of thousands who have also been modified for A.I. Testing and Psychotronic weapons testing
that depends upon "a knowing interface'so one's tether ,one's team can send one altered all means of sensory discomfort and fear inducing thoughts not thy own
to not only SEE and HEAR but also DREAM that come from a source
not your own
but nonetheless based on one's own memories
and "style of thought'
they know everything about you
and you know so little about them.
"that's how it works'
the longer this goes on the less I care if it is my own government or another government doing this to me.Nor do I care if this is being done to me and other Targeted Individuals to practice using A.I. ,Psychotronic Terrorism on or against other countries
Any country that does this to it's own citizens
IS the enemy.
But at the same time there is a part of me that doesn't much care WHAT they do to me.
There is less and less of me left.
too little to care.
but always too much of me there to be petrified.
eventually I have enough strength and integrity to leap off a high building
and
this dear reader is in fact all that keeps me sane.
this and street drugs.
but I did too much of them for too long....
and here I am.-in detox.
the drugs I did ....never caused the hallucinations...
the drugs (crack ,heroin) were the only way I could create a firewall....a buffer..
against
"My Team"
I write from long hand blue pen scrawled on the back
of some print out I received "in group'
although I am "in detox" I am still persuaded to 'go to groups"
and learn the reasons I use.
explaining that you use to "make a firewall' between your own mind and some
maniacs who "took you" and dosed you with nanotech ,created to "TEST Neural and perceptual Threshold" doesn't cut it -in rehab
but than again I am writing on the back of a print out that's jist is
YOUR PAIN IS NOT YOUR OWN
yes...a print out I suppose to scare some one with a "drug problem' that although they are in physical pain...
Proper Pain medicine ....is not worth the "price"
really?
here's a bit...verbatim-when your mind is on one region of your own body,the idea is to keep it focused on that region, feeling any and all sensations in that region and breathing this sensation "to" and "from" that region
THIS ...this nonsense above DOES
CUT IT in rehab...
being in my own 24/7 "institution" of Brain Entrainment
I realize quite early in my incarceration
THIS (my being in detox,I can deal with -proper punishment It Is---and warning that "as bad as it gets with "Mandlers" doping myself to discontinuity
is not worth the return...
suicide is about as painless as breathing genuine physical pain "to' and 'from" the painful region in the "body" of one who has now been insinuated with the "hard fact" one under no circumstances can numb their pain...
for ANY reason because somehow
FIRST and FOREMOST one is AN ADDICT...
suicide is not painless.
but
POSSIBLE
and perhaps 'the only way out " of being a targeted individual
....
I SEE THE DETOX SHRINK
and explain -the circumstances of my "really not caring ,if fact WANTING to go as they say one toke OVER the line...
I explain that 'I don't HEAR voices and SEE things for the reasons I know he presumes
I see the smile crip across his face
and watch him go on "I know YOU think this" therapeutic mode
and wonder what it might feel like
to "go homicidal "instead of suicidal
on sorts like this shrink here...(shouldn't one do everything once one has decided "it's time go" bucket list style-?
I have never killed anyone...
but can think of very few people who deserve "to go" more than psychiatrists
the thought -it comes and goes-
but to confront shrink after shrink who doesn't bother keeping "up" on "neurotech'
is disquieting ---
scary....
and for a brief "yawn of a neuron"
a flicker of me doing a bit of FX/Showtime handiwork on this moron
"minds' eye"s itself in my visual cortex
I can't say that I feel this bit of Punch and Splice Violence transmit itself to "my team'
that monitors my brain signals
but I can say I sense "this change of scenery" and cameo by this nitwit shrink is a rather
nice (although a bit tawdry)
"change of pace"-Frank Mills
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