rural

so I glean
and gleaning is quite different than ...hearing Evan
it's "reading ' Evan....
how cAN I EXPLAIN TO SOMEONE NOT ENDOWED WITH 350,000 NANOTUBES UPSIDE THEIR HEAD
THE DIFFERNECE BETWEEN A TRUE LY NON VERBAL INTERFACE OF WORDLESS IDEAS.
and just hearing shit?

well
the jist of this little pack of knowledge ,,,which I suppose is to "keep me sorta' going and OK with the next 4 /5 years of being warehoused...
is
i'll meet one more bad boy boyfriend who will just my type based on some composite of every actor I dig and every bum I go for ..quickie style in a club bathroom...
and go off with him someplace  rural...
meaning ..in the country...somewhere..and learn how to shoot..

and I'm like.
finally some "action"
cause if I have to keep drawing these fuckin paintings I will seriously go insane...
I hate nothing more than being in a room painting ...
I write because they pay me to...but now that they want me to stop smoking crack ...I don't really need the dough ...so I guess...
and than learn from the Glean I will write a couple of more weeks...and fade this ...bog of a blog to
some ..variation of ..dumbo tries to write a experimental novel but says ...fuck it...and by than I will meet another mister wrong and
do the
let's play with guns shit...

which to be honest
can't come at a beter time
I graph to Evan if

in this rural place

there will be horses
or at least a pony